Saturday, October 28, 2006

a levels coming soon. in a few days.

good luck everyone..

all the best =)

-gene
the guys at 12:41 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006

hohoho. looks like this blog is dead! well just as well. too much negative publicity anyway.

i am one very mentally drained guy right now. just came back from some computerised pilot selection test at CMPB. it was a hell 5 hours test. a lot of psychomotor nonsense where you gotta co-ordinate your hand eye movements, multi-task between 3 to 4 things all at once.
well it was a surprise as i met two yfc buddies there. ivan and iskandar. hahas the deja vu came all over again. feels as if its 1.5 years ago where i applied to joined YFC, the hundred of millions of selection processes there was, just like now, but this time, RSAF!

well hopefully i get through, else i gotta think of another career alternative already.
argghh miss phy geog lesson today though.

theres nothing much thats been going on recently, except that im surviving on instant noodles? im one very very broke man right now. i believe im gonna be in very deep financial shit pretty soon. meet my doom.
which is not the right time to happen. prelims is 7 days away and im only halfway through my revision. not counting today, that makes 6- since i dont have the mental energy to continue doing anything after that 5 hour nonsense at RSAF.

many things been going on my mind. i feel so so distracted, seem so lost everyday. somethings that are troubling me that nobody would probably ever know. life do seem meaningless at time, don't it? sighs. theres nothing i can do abt my problems. nothing at all. im so helpless.
well i guess the only thing i can do is to try not to think abt them and just try to focus on studying

well i guess everyone shld be studying hard right now.! do keep the pace people. work hard and we shall reap the fruits soon (i hope. >.<)

theres walla mugging session this friday! looking forward to it. long time never mug with the walla dudes!
hahahas

-gene
the guys at 6:57 PM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

hello its the lifeless me again, trying to revive this place which has been dead for quite awhile with no interesting posts by sanjay evan and clement.
where are you guys. lols all busy mugging for prelims?

ah its 23 or 24 days to the prelims. and 74 days to the freaking a levels.

and a couple of months before we will all shave bald and lose our hair.

oh well its been a long time since i last had a life. haven went out for proper leisure activities for a long long time. ive forgotten when i last stepped into town or even went to the jacuzzi/steam bath downstairs even.

every day its night study programme, night study and night study. ahahaas
oh well. college life is really coming to an end pretty soon people.

don be too stressed eh people.

-gene
the guys at 7:34 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

i hereby declare this blog dead.

-.-

-gene
the guys at 7:44 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

ah... sexy sexy... good evening everyone. well i have to say its been a rather fiesty week in waseelinlaobei and i have to say i've seen conflicts boil... mostly revolving around Evan and Eugene(obviously with Calvin at the center of debate). i've got to see AI and CI and Passerby get in all the verbal discusions as a result of Evan's GUAILAN and Eugene's STRAIGHT TO THE POINT(this also applies to Evan) posts. its been really a monumental week in waseelinlaobei's history.


As a tribute to the past week...i'd love to add on to wad's already been spelt out by my mates. well...i think for calvin, i told u this b4. u really gotta get ur act together. have ur own say. know where u stand and all. if u really wanna be in this group, work and do something about it. no point following the group without uttering a single word. if not, u can leave. simple. u don fit. u juz don't. find another puzzle in which u can fit.


ah...now... the most interesting part. AI, CI, Passerby...whoever lah. its really humouros checking out ur tags. i mean. why do u have so much will to fight for Calvin?? do u ppl actually really feel for Calvin or are u all juz trying to attract some attention by seemingly trying to showcase ur intellect in response to Evan's and Eugene's posts and sarcasm? i gotta say... there's really no point trying to GUAILAN Evan. u try that, he'll gun u down ten times more(if u realise evan i'm praising u here, but don get too cocky ok?). i feel u guys were juz trying to outsmart "The Waseelinlaobei" with ur so called "intellectual" remarks. please.. save ur faces and the intelligence u have left and use it somewhere else.. we use our intelligence in this blog coz its OURS. if u think its nonsense, thats ur problem, not ours...and we CAN SAY WAD WE WANT HERE. noone is to stop us...but u ppl on the other hand, u can choose not to say and i advise u(STRONGLY ADVISE U) to consider about not tagging here again. u have a choice


but nonetheless, i would like to thank these "taggers" for making the whole week more eventful with all ur "intellectual" remarks but sadly, i think its come to an end and ur job here is done... so .. BYE BYE!!


Long live "The Waseelinlaobei"



-who else??? me lah!!!(for those who dunno, it sanjay...i don do "anonymous")
the guys at 10:01 PM

Thursday, July 20, 2006

ok.. just 1 night and so much had happened. i did what i was nt supposed to do, and now i got all the shit happening to me.

i seriously dont want things to turn out this way, esp to evan. i didnt expect my friend will come out with all that.i dunno how im going to face u all.i dunno whether u all will give me the chance.

the thing is at the start, i noe im quite weird.i tried to change.it most probably didnt work, looking at how the things have strained between me and certain pple.

i dunno how im going to get forgiveness and acceptance from u pple.i admit to the fact that i cant stick along with u all.but i hope that things can get better.i noe u all wld most probably want me to leave. i just hope that i can get to noe why or sth, or u all can give me the 1 more chance to be the real me.

calvin.
the guys at 11:41 PM

Oh look who's here. Anonymous guy yet again. So why not introduce yourself, join the party :) Sigh, what's this with anonymous guys anyways... Got the balls to "settle" with others, but no balls to take responsibility for the one thing that belongs to you, your identity?

Oh well, the strange things juveniles do.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not fabricating anything. I'm simply stating facts. The fact remains, that if you really are the hero you claim you are, wanting to solve your friend's problems, then why tag anonymously?

Hmm, CL could mean a million people. Calvin Lee, for one. Maybe Cunt Lover, or Castrated Lanjiao, or whatever.

I mean, surely it couldn't stand for one of the above suggested nicknames, but unless you identify yourself, there really isn't much point for debate anyways. We don't talk to people who hide :)

Wanna be macho, then don't cower behind the walls of internet. It'll give you a false sense of courage, a heroic delusion.

I mean seriously, how the hell are you going to settle this anyways?

You wanna hit us? Fight us? Challenge us to some street fight?

Well, i strongly suggest against it, because if you do so, you jolly well kill us.

As far as things go, and Mrs Murthy from GP class explains, the death penalty still exists.

But then again, I doubt someone who hides behinds the mask of a pseudo-name possesses the courage whatsoever to commit murder. If you don't kill us, we'll see you in jail. :)

If you think for two seconds we won't get you, I'm sorry to shatter your miserable delusions. We will report you. Who knows, you gotta pay for the hospital bills too :)
Plus sit your ass around a fucked up prison, while we sue your fucking ass all the way to hell.

Anyways, I don't see the reason why you're getting mad anyways. Well, let me put it this way. If the entire clique is giving Mr. Calvin Lee a hard time, then the burning question remains : What is he still doing sticking to us? If you're not happy with the way you're treated, LEAVE.

We're sending a straight on signal : YOU'RE NOT WELCOME

It's that simple. We're taking drastic measures to remove a piece of chewing gum stuck to our shoe. It juz won't get off. Initially we'll drag the shoe off the floor, then we'll use a piece of paper to get it off. If all else fails, we use our hands. Ever walked around with a piece of chewing gum on yer shoe? It's fucking irritating, and you can't walk properly.

Well, no one's forcing him to be with us. He chose to stay. We can't forcefully guailan anyone. So if you think about it, he wants to take the shit. If he doesn't he could leave. He could go and be friends with you, Mr. CL macho guy. Take him under your wing, take care of him, protect him, do whatever you want. Hell, you can even fuck him. We don't care. The point is, he isn't welcome here. ANY idiot can tell that we don't.

If he left when he wasn't accepted into the group, then we would have respected him. At least he knew where he stood. But since he stuck to us like glue, and refused to leave, then what respect is there? Respect is to be earned, my dear Mr. CL, and i'm sorry to say your dear friend has not earned our respect.

I'm asking you to be logical here. Look at the things as they are placed upon the tables of reason. Every single time we guailan Calvin, we're telling him to leave. He didn't. So who's the one at fault here? By not sticking to us, he won't be guailaned anymore. It's simple isn't it. But he decides to stay. Whether its him wanting to fit in or whatever, that isn't the point. The POINT is that he chose to stay. He chose this. What we're doing is perhaps not the nicest thing to do, but it's necessary. We can't tolerate much of him further, and we've tried the other "nicer" ways, but it didn't work. Put yourself in our shoes and consider our options for once.

I'm offering you the alternative solution, which is to be rational, and not screw up your life. Like I said, hit anyone of us, and we'll see you in court :) Basically, we have the legal leverage. Additionally, us being guailan to Calvin is not even close to being a reasonable excuse for assault. Call me ball-less, well I am, if u refer to my previous posts(sigh). I suggest you do not attempt anything stupid. While the other guys may attend to your request of a fight, lay any finger on me and well, I'll see that you're duly punished. Don't say I didnt warn you. =) Our country is rather unforgiving when it comes to ex-convicts... if you know what i mean :)

Don't let go of your life, your education, your future, for another person. I understand Calvin is your friend, but are you willing to give up everything for another person? Ok, let's say you give us a beating. Let me assure you that if Calvin continues to stick with us, we're not gonna stop being his best friends :)
So you'll basically screw up your life, and still not help Calvin eventually. So why not do this the easy, painless, and most efficient way.

Shut the fuck up. Get the hell out of our sight. Take Calvin with you.

Sorry if i sounded too harsh. I'm afraid you wouldn't get the message, the same way Calvin fails to get ours. You know, feathers of the same bird flock together. Just being careful you know, don't want you to get the wrong idea.

You got a few choices the way I see it.

1. Attempt to beat us up and get your ass kicked anyways. Calvin remains fucked.
2. Attempt to beat us up and you kick our ass. Calvin remains fucked. You're fucked.
3. Attempt to kill us. Calvin remains fucked. You're hanged by the court of law.
4. Attempt to kill us. Calvin remains fucked. You escape but live forever in guilt.
5. Be Calvin's friend. Love him. Cherish him. Do what we couldn't. Leave in peace. We go in peace. Fair, painless. As a free gift, Calvin leads a better life away from us, and you don't need to jeopardize your life.

Choice 5 seems a good bargain, compared to the rest :)

Think about it. I hate to see another soul go down in flames.

-evan. man i wanna be a lawyer when i graduate.
the guys at 10:27 PM

to calvin:
whining and complaining up here about your screwed up life aint going to help you get anywhere. im serious. what help do you think it will net you?
now let me talk some sense into you.

you whine about your bottomless pit, which consists of your mediocre grades, your fitness levels not ready for NS, us guailan-ing you. have you ever thought of why? why all these are happening? things don just happen you know.

your mediocre grades: you aint some genius who can score triple As without touching some books okay. welcome to college. you HAVE to fucking open your FUCKING books and start hitting on them. u have been getting 4Fs like since how long? have you woke up yet? you wan to sleep during lessons, when you arent even performing. you don want to repeat year 1, yet you wouldnt work hard enough. when you know you suck, you gotta work on it, doubly, or much harder than the rest of us. you might complain. "hey eugene! you also sleep in class everyday!" i sleep because i have short attention span, but when i go home, i do hit my books and try to catch up.

you need help man. you really need help. if you do not want to be in a sorry state next year when u receive ur results, you better do something.

your fitness: cant pass NAPFA? think you cant go through NS? its all mind over body. you want fitness. you wan to pass, you wan to go through NS without dying. you gotta work for it. you gotta hit the gyms. people don become fit from sitting in front of the com. the rest of us here normal humans WORK OUT (or at least initially) to get certain standard of fitness. you aint superman alright? muscles dont fall from the sky. you cant grow them by rotting alrite? wake up. wake up.

us guailaning you: ever wondered why? why you are the subject of our endless disturbing, criticisms and stuffs? its really how you are behaving. theres just something weird about you, cannot be put simply into sentences. but really, theres too much of you trying to fit in but cant seem to, instead you become "trying too hard". and the funny things you do. ah i really nothing to say la. look at "project kayda", if you realised how cheesy that was. shucks and we thought all our waseelinlaobei songs were really cheesy, until u came out with project kayda, we were like wow. you really the god of cheesiness.


go think about it calvin.

to whoever CL is:
firstly, fuck off =)
why are there people in this world who seems to think that they are heroes, garang and almighty? "settle them for you?" I would love to see you settle me. come get me.
we are trying to help calvin be a man. be a guy who face up to his problems, so just fuck off alright? get lost.

-gene
the guys at 9:58 PM

sick.tired.full of fatigue.

another week comes to a close.nearer to prelims.and the more i feel like quitting.im nowhere close to any1 in class.at a bottomless pit.

nearly everyday is my birthday.how nice is that?no presents, just a birthday song.

im really the ultimate loser, what God? thats fuck.
a fucked up person in a fucked up situation.thats how it stands.



















and it wont change.

pple will still celebrate my birthday.pple will still sing those songs.pple will still talk abt 34 x 2 + 1.

wad to do?nothing.i will most probably flunk my A lvls, lose $$ in betting and in stocks, and go to NS feeling like fuck.

me like a caterpillar? thats so not true.
calvin.still loserly.still lousy in anything.
the guys at 9:31 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

What a day. I slept at 4.30am. Woke up at 7.30am. Had breakfast. Packed my guitar. Took off to my old house to get my $500 worth of financial assistance from MOE. That's probably the only good thing that happened to me in a long time. Reached Jurong East at 1.30pm. Waited. Waited. And waited. Until 5.30 where the event finally began. We were supposed to start at 2.30... and then it got pushed to 5.30... and then it got pushed further to 6.30. From 30 mins worth of jamming time, we were cut down to playing only 2 songs.

Which was worse, cuz we screwed up the 2 songs.

1. I'd Rather Be In Love - Michelle Branch

- rather easy, no difficulty whatsoever. Girly Pop Rock kinda stuff. We screwed up.

2. Lay Me Down - The Wreckers(which comprises of Michelle Branch)

- even easier, noob song. We screwed up.

The vocalist could barely be heard. Why? One of the guitars was about 500 percent louder than the rest of us. Even the drums. And the guitar was not mine. I mean, it made absolute sense to turn around and turn the volume knob down. How difficult is that? If the volume is too loud, then reduce it. The fucking amp is behind you. Turn the fucking knob. DUH. How fucking hard is it to do so. Perhaps he didnt realize that the volume was too loud. Then maybe he's fucking deaf in the fucking ear. Perhaps he didnt realize that he could reduce the volume from the amplifier. I don't know, but whatever it is, I did whatever i could to help. I stopped playing in the middle of the song in order to try and rectify the obscene level of his volume with his pedal, but it didn't work.

Oh, i tried. I tried to remedy the situation. He just stood there. And drowned the entire library with entertaining white noise. Oh well, he then told it "It wasn't my fault". Sure, it wasn't. I agree, totally it wasn't your fault. Of course it wasn't your fault. But it sure as hell wasn't mine.

2 songs. 2 songs and we can still manage to screw things up. We were planning for 7. What else could have happened? We can't even play a single song coherently together. So much for being a band.

Well, we can't blame any one person. Sanjay is a fantastic drummer, Sze Min is a great vocalist, and Ching is one the best guitarists in school. So its my fault. I'm just not good enough. After all, I was the one who cost us the loss in talentime. I was too individualistic. They're probably gonna blame me for this post anyways. "Oh you're too exaggerating." "Oh, stop making a big deal out of it." "Oh, stop throwing a tantrum."

Is it? Is this too exaggerating? Every performance I had I walked off the stage feeling like a piece of shit. Why? We never pull it off. Its not even close to good. I'm not asking for perfection. I'm asking for satisfaction. That's all there is to it. The worst thing were the claps. Patronizing claps. I hate that. However weak I am in my guitar skills, I am after all a performer. I want to perform, I want to make music. The last fucking thing i need is to be shown false appreciation.

So this is what i get for practising every fucking night. Every god damned night i pick up my guitar and i practise the songs we do. I'm not exactly into all of this Michelle Branch, Avril Lavigne shit. But I practise it anyways. In the end what do i get? Fucked up reactions from the audience. Fucked up performance. Fucked up attitude. Fucked up everything. Don't get me wrong. I'm fucked up too.

I don't ever want to walk off any fucking stage and regret the performance. I don't ever want to get fucked up results after i've given everything i got for something.

If we played our best, and we still lost, then i got nothing to say. Then we lost with dignity. But if we lost because of a fucked up performance, then there's the shame. I don't know about how the others feel, but this is how i feel.

At least i'm prepared to give it 110 percent. But this is a band. It's not enough for me to not make mistakes. It's not enough for me to not fuck up. If you fucked up, then you jolly well take the shit. Don't fucking tell me not to fucking fuck you up, because if you didnt fuck up, then there's nothing for me to fuck you up for.
If that didn't make any fucking sense, then you should fuck off.

I'm not going to harp on this anymore. I've got to move on. It so much easier to do things alone. Nothing to coordinate. Nothing to worry about. Everything under control. From now on i'm gonna concentrate on my own guitar. My own sound. My own practising. Call me selfish. At least when i screw up i only have myself to blame. That way it'll feel less fucked up.

-evan. sorry for the length. sorry for the tantrum. i'm only human.
the guys at 7:25 PM

Well, as you can see, our love guru here Calvin has decided to bury a blade into a TV set!

Woah, that's some violence.

That certainly is NOT going to help you with any relationship, since people are generally disapproving of violent people.

But it doesn't matter for you, of course.

After all, you're the god of romance!

Cupid Incarnate!

1000 times cuter too :)

So I guess the negative effect of being violent really would not compromise any affection any girl has for you. *Grovel*

Being a deity, you should have more confidence in your omnipotence!

Why do you think we've sung birthday songs for you every break? Why do you think we composed your song you posted on the blog? Why do you think we mention you at every possible chance?

We LOVE you! We thrive in your presence! We idolize you more than anything!

You ask why.. perhaps... Why should I be so godly? Why should I be immortalized in such a way? Well, such things are hard to explain. Why do we look the way we do? We can't answer that. Ask yourself that question. There's really no answer, isn't there? The fact that you're blessed with such gifts make you a really special person, and you should never let that go to waste. Especially when you're qualities surpass anyone of us.

You're bigger than you think you are. Only you are holding yourself back. If you decide to push forward, push further, and break the glass cuffs that bind your limbs. Shatter these restrictions and you will discover so much more that you can do with your new found freedom, and new found strength.

All hail the new and reborn Calvin! All hail his might! All hail his charm! I will be the first to follow in your footsteps and gather supporters in your name!

If that ever happens.

I sincerely hope that day will eventually come.

I really do.

You really don't know whether to trust me or not, don't you?

Let's put it this way. At least you know the uncertainty in me.

What about the other people who you can't see the uncertainty in?

The people who do not openly show their how much they dislike you and everything you are, but speak of you behind your back?

The scary thing is always not what you know. Its always what you don't know about.

Are you getting paranoid?

You're probably going to reply and say that you don't care.
You're probably going to say that it doesn't matter to you.

It's easy to say things like that :) It's incredibly easy to put on a false front and seem cool about things. How long are you going to lie to yourself?

It's all bullshit.

You're going to feel the constant pressure, the undying pain of being in the limelight.

For the wrong reasons.

People staring at you, judging you, putting labels on you, before they even know you.

Aren't you desperately searching for one who can really understand you? Aren't we all searching for someone who can see through us?

Even if it means that the whole world misunderstands you, all we need is one person we can turn to. One person whom we can confide in. One person to share our lives with. We're all searching for that person. That's all there is to it. It's not the money we earn. It's not the things we do. It's not the nonsensical mathematical questions we are doing in school today. It's not any of that shit. It's about finding our soul's recognition in another person.

I understand the search can be difficult, especially when the odds are against you. The waves can get intimidating. It's not easy, definitely, especially for people like us that do get labels slapped on us before we even say a word.

Persevere. Even the ugliest caterpillar can become a butterfly. Even the ugliest duckling can become the swan it was meant to be. Even the smallest seed can blossom into the most beautiful bouquet of roses.

I'm waiting to see you grow. I'm waiting for you to rise from the ashes and spread your wings, the fiery Pheonix.

-evan. hey, cut the guy some slack man. he's just like the rest of us. a normal human being. at least i hope so. eh calvin, you are a normal human being rite? Oh yeah i forgot. He's a god. Yeah. Right.
the guys at 12:32 AM